The last two weeks have been difficult. I don’t deal with people who lack responsibility and people who take advantage of my time. But, if it did nothing else, it reinforced the standing in my mind that I need to speak out and hold people accountable for what they say they are going to do.
Many times, I have acted, or rather not acted, out of fear: fear that people won’t like me, fear that I could get written up at work or fired, fear that I will offend a friend or relative, fear that people just won’t understand me or my frustrations.
when I use my fear to determine my actions, I am lacking a personal responsibility to stand up for myself and what I want or expect.
When I look at fear in this way, I feel silly.
I have a fear about how companies will react when I tell them the story behind why I can’t pay our medical deductibles. This week, however, I pulled up my big girl panties, took a deep breath, and explained our situation to a couple of companies that called to collect their payment. I heard the gasps in the background of the people who listened, made notes, and understood.
I have a fear that my writing will offend people or be misunderstood, but the more I write, the more I am finding my voice and my audience. (To those of you who are my audience, thank you for reading.)
I have a fear . . .
I have a fear . . .
I stand up to you, fear. I will tear you down and be a better person for it.
Everything I’ve ever wanted is on the other side of fear.
Hi, I’m Becky. (Ok, Rebecca, but I am rarely addressed that way.) I am a writer and a musician with a tendency to enjoy a variety of crafting opportunities, but I retired from teaching in 2014. I taught in the high school English department: various levels of English, creative writing, public speaking, and theater (acting, directing, and technical theater). As a teacher, I held the philosophy that I wouldn’t give any writing assignment that I personally wouldn’t or couldn’t do. That philosophy strengthened and broadened my own writing. Interested in finding out more? CLICK HERE.
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