Hi, I’m back. Or at least that is my intention.
I started January 2019 with the greatest of intentions: I was going to drag myself up to my studio (even if I didn’t want to) and write for at least 10 minutes. I was going to write and read each day. I was going to create my own DIY Creative Writing Master’s Degree. I was going to finish and get through at least the first edit of a novel. I was going to write to a prompt each AND EVERY day.
I haven’t followed through. Why? Because of fear: fear of criticism, fear that I will do the work and no one will be interested, fear of being sued for what I have written, fear of making money and not reporting it correctly in my taxes, fear that I am not a good writer. Fear is my greatest pieces of resistance. (Read The War of Art by Steven Pressfield.)
It’s been almost two months since I have actually WRITTEN much of anything except my morning pages, actually make that more than two months – many more.
I’d like to say that it has been stress that has been standing in my way: the dog bite on my right hand, the effect of the pain pills I was on for that bite, the numerous appointments that I have needed to get to with my husband, the concern over my oldest step-daughter’s new relationship, the concerts I needed to practice for, and … the list goes on.
But those are just excuses for FEAR.
Why can I say that those things are just excuses for FEAR? Because when I was teaching high school, I would squeeze writing time in between classes, with my classes, between grading sets of papers, and even late at night when I should be sleeping. I participated in National Novel Writing Month and wrote 50,000 words or better during a month (November) when life was extremely chaotic.
Now, I struggle to put pen to paper or fingers to keyboard.
However, I have taken up a challenge to write for at least 10 minutes each day of May on a single project. I am now on a journey, a journey that will hopefully take my writing further.
TODAY’S SUCCESS: I wrote for 10 minutes on the beginning of a historical novel about the naming of Four Roses Bourbon (It’s a brief legend that has intrigued me since Hubby and I ventured on part of the bourbon trail distilleries tours.). I wrote an article for Medium. AND I wrote this article.
I have successfully kicked my fears and resistance in the figurative butt.
Do you have any fears regarding writing? What are you struggling with in your writing? Do you find resistance in your creative life?
Please, take a moment to share something about your writing life in the comments below.